Is He faithful?

I ask you this question, Is He faithful. Now at first it seams simple... Yes of course He is...

but its not until you walk threw dark times, and disappointment after disappointment, till you can really answer this question, the trying of our faith.

Where to start?

2 years ago i gave birth to a beautiful baby boy who we named Samuel. he was born at 36 weeks, and yet weighed 7.12. due to complications he needed to be admitted to the NICU. It was extremely difficult for us, i was robbed of a number of things due to this including the ability to nurse him, as he had gotten used to the bottle they gave him in NICU. to make a long story much shorter he turns 2 march 17, and is a very healthy boy.

Now we jump forward to 11 months ago. I found out i was pregnant. As with all of our children we pray over them continually while they are in the womb, well because Sam was in the NICU we knew what to go after first. So for the entirety of my pregnancy i prayed that this baby would be completely healthy and there would be no need for the NICU. I had missed out on so much before and did not want to go threw that again. So every day i prayed over her a number of things and one of the most important things to me was that NICU, I prayed and prayed, i was the persistent widow, and i believed with ALL my heart that She would be born healthy and not ever need the NICU. I was so excited to finally get to hold her and have her all to myself in the hospital, well on January 5th at 9:00pm i went to Holy Spirit Hospital, excited to meet my Daughter, Joined by my hubby of course as well as my sister Amanda, and my little sister Tashi. At approximately 5:00am i gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl on the planet, and at 9:00 am she was taken to the NICU where she remained for 2 weeks. She was diagnosed with aspirated pneumonia, and fought for her life daily, my little girl so sick we could not even touch her, on 99% oxygen, full IV's, and a boatload of antibiotics the fight began, and devastated, heart broken and in a state of shock i wept, the next few days only got worse as she had a heart murmur and after an ultrasound of her brain they suspected bleeding of her brain, she had a number of times stopped breathing and her heart rate dropped.

I prayed and prayed she would be born healthy, and not need the NICU and yet there she laid, helpless and fighting all she could.

So i ask you again is this God we serve Faithful?

my answer......

YES!!!!

And

HE ALWAYS WILL BE

He may not always answer our prayers the way we would like Him to but He is always faithful

God did not Fail here (although it took a lot of prayer and lots of talking it out with Him)

what happened was The devil wanted to kill my daughter and my ever so faithful God said

NO!

where are we today...

well, I am loosing my mind having 3 under 3, but life is crazy, yet good.

Alivia still has a murmur, she has been diagnosed with Branch Pulmonary Artery Stenosis.

in other words, her pulmonary artery branches are too narrow and need to widen by next month when she goes back in to the cardiologist,

Please pray for us as we are still very much in the heat of this ongoing battle.

but we serve a Mighty Faithful God

one simple statement

I love my Papa and my Papa loves me.
(Papa God that is)

my kitties need a new home

ok so we have 2 pure white cats they are 3 years old, and very cuddley. but we have to get rid of them. they are of course litter trained. one is male one is female, they are spayed and neudered (don't know how to spell that) both are declawed. this is hard for us we really want a good home for them. i will take any advice you have. and spred the word
thanks
big red

more help please

also how do i change my picture?

I don't do computers

ok so i hate computers, yep i said it. i get sooooo frustrated doing , or lets say tring to do things, for instance, i was tring to get (the ruda family blog) to be on my page so i don't have to go threw my sisters to read it among other's. well after 20 min and still no luck. i have come to the conclusion I HATE COMPUTERS. don't forget i am the one who's sister set up my acct, like a month or 2 ago, but did not blog cause i could not get on my own page, things should be simpler for the computer challenged. help.

Oh, so this is how it works

ok so i am not so good with computers to say the least. ask my sister and she will tell you. and laugh at me i am sure. so now that i finially know my password here i am. now what to say?
i am recovering from a long weekend with my in -laws including my sister-in-law and her fiance, all staying in my house, now that should be enough for any person to endure, but i also had my oldest son's birthday party. and well my in-laws here for 4 days. now i do love my in-laws don't get me wrong, i just like my house to be clean, me to be the only mom to my kids. and not to feel like everything i do as a mom is wrong, and she (mother in law)can do better. so my house is a mess and it took me 4 hours to ballence my check book and do budget. who has time for that? ugh.
ok so to explain our names, i am big red, (shocker) my husband is speedy (he is the slowest man i know, and i really think that when he knows i am in a hurry he moves slower on purpose) Roo is my oldest son (my sister came up with that name and it stuck) and last but definately not least Little Hawk my youngest (Amanda came up with this one too.)
and to my favorite sister in the whole world, thanks Amanda for just being you. i love you even though you were adopted. :)

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